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Satisfaction Through Education

09.11.2010

I love the nursing profession... never will I be a doctor to disrespect a nurse!

I’m back in school, y’all!

Now, some may say that my choice of institution of higher education is unacceptable. Believe me, if ever there was an internal elitist, I’d be her. I don’t care where you’ve been or what you’ve done, so long as you’re a decent human being with a sense of purpose, but I, myself, had better be involved in everything high-end, or else I’m nothing… in my mind, obviously.

What I’m finding at Kaplan College is that I’m being allowed to ask questions again! I was never able to do that in a university without being made to feel stupid… unless I was in AFROTC classes, and then, I was just too afraid to ask anything. No, this feels like a community college at a higher level of commitment. Let’s chalk that last part up to the amount of money we’re all spending, though! haha

Tomorrow (today) is our first exam: therapeutic communication and vital signs. Anyone care to tell me that I don’t know my material? Didn’t think so.
HOWEVER, you’d never know it by looking at my study guides! Drove me nuts today! I missed five questions on my first study guide, and then another ten on my second (though, in all fairness, I did not complete the second study guide and only graded what I’d done for informational purposes… will correct it and replace grade, thank goodness!).

Seriously, with the way my grades went south my last semester in university, some two years ago, any kind of nursing degree program needs to see a sharp, but consistent, upward trend in my comprehension and performance. This is not such a good start, wouldn’t you agree??? Furthermore, what will any given medical school think?! I mean, that’s my ultimate goal! Surgeons aren’t just hatched overnight, you know!!!

So, with all this in mind I’ve decided to really give myself a little bit of a break on the first exam. Honestly, there are six exams in this first course alone, so SOMETHING’S got to come along later on in the quarter that will only be benefitted by my stumbling at this early juncture.

ENOUGH VENTING! 🙂
The point of this blog-thingie is this:  THIS is what I was missing in my life.

OH. MY. GOODNESS.

Forget dating, forget friends (though I love you all dearly!), forget money, performance (though I also love that dearly)… MEDICINE and LEARNING are simply what allow me to thrive. Like I tell anyone who meets me, it’s just in my blood. (Don’t take that literally, either.)

Ever since moving back in with my parents in early September, before starting school, I was feeling a certain cloak of dread, that things would never change, and my cross-country moves were all in vain. Despite my efforts to attempt being upbeat, it simply wasn’t happening. I talked to spiritual counselors online, I made a new friend with widely different but respectable perspectives, I prayed all the time, I was reading my Bible looking for answers. Something simply wasn’t in place.

NOW I KNOW WHY!!!

My brain isn’t clouded by emotional stresses of a relationship, no drama, no craziness, but only my thirst for knowledge. I may not be able to sleep right this second, but let’s chalk that up to excitement, shall we??? I still have to push myself to study… often… but it’s absolutely worth it, because I’m learning exactly what I WANT to learn.

*sigh of relief*

Isn’t finding your life’s purpose exhilarating?!

P.S.
In addition to being in an exciting environment of learning, I’ve joined http://www.sparkpeople.com. BE SURE TO CHECK IT OUT! What a motivator. And it’s FREE!!!

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